Who Controls You?

I'm having one of those days where I'm just throwing myself into the Word. I need it, I crave it. Tonight's study has been all over the place (oh, the life of an ADHD). Started with a devotional about control. Yep, I need to study more about this! I am not good at letting others control me. At all. And I suffer because of it! So, I get to a verse in Proverbs about making wise choices and how wisdom is sweet like a honey comb.
Then, my ADHD kicks in and now I've hit another verse about strength. And it's also so fitting. "If you fail under pressure, your strength is too small." -Proverbs 24:10. Wow. Slam on the breaks! its about to get deep in here!!! On a day where I have fought to stay strong, I have lost! I have had steam blowing out my ears for the last 26 hours!!! And the whole time I thought I was being strong! Stupid me! I consulted my Life Application Bible about this verse (it dumbifies the Word to a level where I can understand!) This is what it says about Proverbs 24:10, "Times of trouble can be useful. They can show you who you really are—what kind of character you have developed. In addition, they can help you grow stronger. When Jeremiah questioned God because of the trouble he faced, God asked how he ever expected to face big challenges if the little ones tired him out (Jeremiah 12:5). Don’t complain about your problems. The trouble you face today is training you to be strong for the more difficult situations you will face in the future."
YIKES!
Let's readdress that. "Times of trouble can be useful. They can show you who you really are—what kind of character you have developed."
Again.
YIKES.
I don't typically deal well under pressure. I consider myself fun, loving, jovial when I'm NOT under pressure. When I AM under pressure, I'm short, quick tempered & irrational; I don't like me & I sure as heck don't expect anyone else to!!! Compare those character traits with the Lauren that's not under pressure & they are polar opposites! No wonder my favorite ward clerk calls me "Bi-bola"!!! Hmmm. How to fix it?! Guess that'll be tomorrow's study. Until my ADHD kicks in & I veer off from control to strength to only God knows what!

Wait. Did I just give up control over my study for tomorrow?!?! Yes, I think I did! Move in the right direction! Woot woot! :D